This and That

So it’s been quite some time since I’ve sat and actually wrote something down.  And to be perfectly honest, I never realized how much I missed it.  Maybe I miss being in an English class where I have to conjure up “interpretations” and find borderline nonsensical symbolism which may or may not actually exist.  If you ask me, if you have to look for them, then may as well not exist. 

But that’s beside the point.

For me, 2011 was a year of personal satisfaction and accomplishments.  I took the year to really focus on myself, where I am in life, and just push forward.  And, you know, I made it.  I got out of community college and into the school I wanted to go to, I began really chasing my true passion in life (music lol), I started making my own money again and I’m dancing a lot, even more than I originally intended to.  It had been a long time coming for me to just do things for me and not really worry about how someone else might feel. In other words, this past year has been quite a learning experience. But enough of the narcissism.

All that being said, I definitely owe a lot to the people around me.  My accomplishments would not have been achieved had it not been for connections, prods and even blatant shoves in the correct directions.  For that I’m very thankful.

But for 2012, I’m making changes.  I’m done waiting around for things to happen, hoping for the best.  Hope is nice.  Action is better.  Fuck apathy, laziness and waiting.  All those things have done for me is lead to disappointment.  So I’m over all of that.

I could say this isn’t about new year’s resolutions and whatnot but it sort of is.  In a few short months, I’ve been able to leave a lot of things from my old life that were holding back from growth I so badly needed.  And now I have been blessed with the opportunity to really make leaps forward.  This is definitely a long time coming and I’m glad that I’m already in the middle of it.

If you made it to the end of this post, lol.  I just needed to really get some thoughts down and make them semi-concrete.

So don’t judge me, please haha

EDIT: I said enough of the narcissism but I kept on with it.  My bad, I just started writing whatever came to mind.  So again, please don’t judge me.